a wanderer's journal 01: somehow i knew the crows were more than just ordinary birds.
i couldn't tell if it was mystic knowledge i'd divined from the astral, or something i just decided, but as god i figured it probably didn't make a difference. beginning and end, mouth and tail, chicken and egg; all the same thing.
so i told myself as i looked at your corpse, hanging there in the bush. it was not the first time i noticed it there; rotted, decaying, but suspended too far away from the ground to return to the earth as nature intended. who could say how long you had been there before i noticed, how much longer before i stopped to really look.
and that's how i knew that you, proud psychopomp, would not be the one to ferry my soul this time. i focused my energy and encircled myself and you, capturing your restless spirit. the spirit of a dead crow, this necromancer thought, would make a decent familiar. but i realized something important: i needed your consent.
i sent my intent to the crows. i knew that they were more than ordinary birds. your murder would communicate between you and i. if you wanted to pass on, they would ferry your soul and it would fade from my possession. otherwise, they would leave me a sign. and so i waited.
but not for long.
there it was. a single black feather on my path. i encircled myself and it, and gratefully took it into my possession, returning home to plan the ritual spell.
the first thing you needed was a name. the name of your old life no longer mattered. this was a resurrection, a reincarnation. to bind you to me, i needed to give you a name. and with that name i shaped a sigil, unique to you, to meditate on. that sigil, and the paper it was bound to, became your new body. and your spirit merged with mine.
little did i know what i had done
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